Hello! I feel horrible admitting this but I cannot wait for the holidays to be over. I am just not up to the craziness this year. It has been quite exhausting especially with a toddler in tow. Not to mention the mental exhaustion from all the bad things that have happened this month.
Not only did my hubby get laid off this month but one of my best friend's passed away as well. Without going into too many details, I know my husband will find a job right away, he already has many leads and a possible offer. But it is worrisome thinking of how we will be without insurance for at least 2 months, which also means I can kiss my thoughts of trying to get pregnant goodbye, at least for now. Don't get me wrong, we can be worse off in this arena but I am a worrier and I am worried. Fast forward about two weeks and one of my best friend's lost her long battle with cancer. I am emotionally at the end of my rope.
Plus, my businesses have been super busy with the holidays. Being that I am self employed there is no calling out sick for a mental health day. I have been editing tons of holiday photos and making tons of jewelry to fulfill orders on my Etsy site. I am truly grateful but I need a break.
Needless to say, I haven't really been in the holiday spirit. I still have Christmas shopping to do, gifts to make, work to finish and the list goes on. I don't have the money to shop but there are many who we want to give to for helping us throughout the year. This upsets me. I just want it all to be over and start fresh in 2014.
Sorry guys...END RANT...
There are many people who feel this way so don't feel weird or alone! The holidays are a great time usually but they do bring about an extra dose of stress, that's for sure!
ReplyDeleteSounds like a mixed bag! A lot of things that are stressing you out (booming business and energetic but lovable toddler) are also things that you really love. That's the good news of it. So sorry to hear about your friend's death. That is just hard to deal with any time of year let alone the holidays. And it sounds like your husband will get a job fast and you will be back on the baby train in no time. Hang in there!!
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