Thursday, July 17, 2014

That Awkward Age

Today I would like to discuss that awkward age. No I am not talking about being a girl between like 9-13, I am talking about being a woman in her early thirties. I feel like I am expected to be this boring, responsible adult but my young partying days are in the not so distant past. And I am still grasping on to trying to be young and cool but am getting pulled towards a mature responsible adult. I feel like I am in a weird spot.

Part of the reason I feel this way is because I look younger than I am. Most people assume I am in my mid-twenties, which is great, but for some reason I feel like I need to act that way as well. Don't get me wrong I am not running around "clubbing" every weekend night or doing keg stands but I don't mind kicking some serious a$$ in beer pong or flip cup at a backyard BBQ. But then I feel a little awkward when I think about the fact I am 32 playing against 23 year olds. And then I think a little more and am like sh*t do they think I'm fun or am I the weird old lady who thinks she's cool? Awkward!!

So I ask you, how do you know if are indeed viewed as hip by a younger demographic or if you are viewed as a "wannabe." Hmmm...I find this even more difficult to decipher because several of my friends are indeed in their mid-twenties. So I have to be cool, right?! Not that I honestly give a sh*t what other people think of me but I don't know what I think of myself and how I should act at times. Do I do what a 20 year old would do or what a middle aged 40 year old would do? Kinda stuck in the middle. Being in your 30's is a awkward place at times. 

I know I am probably giving this too much thought, maybe because I will be turning 33 in a week and a half and I am having this slight identity crisis. My twenties are getting further and further in the past and my forties are getting closer. 20's mean youth and opportunity 40's means middle aged and mini vans. What does it mean when you are in your 30's?! Well, thanks for reading this rambling post...Please tell me that I am not the only one who doesn't know where she fits in age wise. xoxo


  1. I know what you mean!!!! I'm older now but I don't feel old. I still feel young (well mostly when I'm not complaining about how old I'm getting!!) and people say I look young so I just feel like I don't know where I fit. Am I supposed to start wearing old lady clothes? Is it time to give up skinny jeans? It's just weird!!!

  2. Eh, I think age is nothing but a number. I hate when people try to fit others into neat little categories based on age: these are the ones who party, these are the ones with kids, these are the ones who go to bed at 9. I say dress the way you want, do what you want, and live your life on your terms. :) I'm 28 and I definitely don't feel like it! Hah.

  3. You are def not the only one! I just turned 33 and feel old most weekends :) BUT I still want to party like I'm 20. It's a problem really!

  4. I TOTALLY know what you mean!!! :) In my head I think I'm still 20 something and I can stay out and have fun with the "girls", or read until 3 in the morning, or stay up all night on a "girls weekend" but sadly my body doesn't always agree. so sad!! LOL! It loves reminding me that I am 30 something and need to get my butt in bed and have at least 5-7 hours of sleep. lol!

  5. U took the words out of my mouth! Seriously!