Part of the reason I feel this way is because I look younger than I am. Most people assume I am in my mid-twenties, which is great, but for some reason I feel like I need to act that way as well. Don't get me wrong I am not running around "clubbing" every weekend night or doing keg stands but I don't mind kicking some serious a$$ in beer pong or flip cup at a backyard BBQ. But then I feel a little awkward when I think about the fact I am 32 playing against 23 year olds. And then I think a little more and am like sh*t do they think I'm fun or am I the weird old lady who thinks she's cool? Awkward!!
So I ask you, how do you know if are indeed viewed as hip by a younger demographic or if you are viewed as a "wannabe." Hmmm...I find this even more difficult to decipher because several of my friends are indeed in their mid-twenties. So I have to be cool, right?! Not that I honestly give a sh*t what other people think of me but I don't know what I think of myself and how I should act at times. Do I do what a 20 year old would do or what a middle aged 40 year old would do? Kinda stuck in the middle. Being in your 30's is a awkward place at times.
I know I am probably giving this too much thought, maybe because I will be turning 33 in a week and a half and I am having this slight identity crisis. My twenties are getting further and further in the past and my forties are getting closer. 20's mean youth and opportunity 40's means middle aged and mini vans. What does it mean when you are in your 30's?! Well, thanks for reading this rambling post...Please tell me that I am not the only one who doesn't know where she fits in age wise. xoxo