The big problem is that I have gained a lot of weight over the past 5 years. A good 50-60 pounds. So I feel that nothing looks good on me so I just wear whatever I feel can mask my fatness. I used to dress so cute and trendy and I really am missing those days. I used to always be out doing things and looking cute while doing them but now I just feel like a blob. Don't get me wrong, I am not morbidly obese or anything but I know what it feels like to be fit and cute and I miss those days. I am going to get them back.
How did I let myself gain all that weight you may ask? Well, it was gradual over a few years. First I suffered the loss of my best friend and grandma and coped with my grief by eating. Then , I had a bad back injury so I could no longer workout 6 days as week like I used to. Then I got pregnant and after having the baby there really wasn't any time to go to the gym. So little by lttle the pounds packed on.
Well, my birthday is in 6 weeks so my goal is to lose at least 20 pounds by then. I ultimately hope to lose double that but I'll take 20 to start. Then I am going to ask for a new wardrobe for my birthday. Hopefully being 20 pounds lighter clothing will look a little better on me. Then, I want to do something drastic with my hair. I am thinking about cutting it so it's about shoulder length once it's dry and curly. I also want to go platinum blonde. Drastic I know but I need drastic change.
I will touch base with you all at about the 3 week mark and let you know how I am doing with getting towards my weight loss goal. And of course there will be a big post for my birthday featuring my big makeover!
|Thin and fit at my wedding|
|Me now. Ugh!|